a grumpy uncle: your langguage, your soul?

''tue'' ''ag'' ''ap'' ''yekew'' ''nems'' ''tarox'' ''jew'' ''cgat'' ''dyer'' ''kowt'' ''cyunk'' ''plis'' '' aq''

i took a breath. re-read all the abbreviations /nomenclatures. i believed that i couldn't find it in any dictionary, nor malay, english, spanish or french! perhaps these shortforms have their own dictionary. oh man... it took me a while to understand these mainstream words that being used by the youngsters in malaysia.

perhaps among of their peers they have no problem with these words as they are communicating in the same language and same wave. well i think to seniors like me, we are hardly to understand what is the meaning for each words. sometimes i find it irritating due to digest all these bombastic words. it takes me a while or i will request for the meaning.

now, i start to understand the meaning of 'bahasa jiwa bangsa'. moreover now i understand why in early of getting the independence, our nationalists are very particular fighting for the language. as i am now in the foreign country, language is the most powerful tool not only in communication but also in conveying of your thoughts.

i think the deterioration of using the right and beautiful language not only occur in malaysia but also in other parts of the world. for example today the kids here spell water as wa er, bottle as bo er. the problems rise when they spell the words as what they say. i do hope that this problem is still under control back in malaysia.

well, i am no perfect as well. i do use the 'bombastic' words. but at the same time i try to improve my malay language. i admit that i am using 'rojak' (mix english and malay) when i speak. neither of my malay nor english is good. furthermore, at one point i forget some words in my own language. but i do hope the bombastic words will not acceptable as the main language, where these kids use it daily. i bet that teachers will have problems in correcting these kids!therefore, i think there will be a rule in my class (in the future): make sure you make me understand of each words, otherwise there will be no mark! (bingo!)

well, all of all perhaps i am getting older (sigh). grumpy and easily get irritated with the differences (which give me headache when i try to understand it). perhaps i am stuck in my own era (double sigh). but again, i think it still very important to use, enhance and preserve our own language. it shows our own identity and i am proud of it. happy 53rd independence day... i am proud to be a MALAYSIAN.

hmmm

it was a while, i didn't write anything to this blog. i have lots in my mind, but i have no motivation to write. my book writing up plan stopped as well. perhaps the mind block? no, i am too lazy to write i guess. sometimes i think my body is here, but my soul is somewhere else. perhaps i am too eager to go home hence i cannot stay focus.

my preparation allright (i guess). but i don't think i put 100% efforts yet. then i believe i can increase the rate (hopefully). fasting month this year is OK. most of the days are raining and cold. the autumn is coming! hmmm i can't wait to see the leaves turn to yellow, orange and red. it is awesome!

in this short time i do hope that i can absorb the air, the scenery the everything here around me! (i guess) as the time flies and there is no way of getting it back. all the experiences is priceless. learning something to improve my life (insya allah).

as i am counting the days, my prayers to allah to give me strength and bless me, to face my reality. i do hope the almighty protects me, as i am powerless without HIS loves and mercy.

1st half of first day ramadhan

it was raining yesterday. almost all day long. only when the clock turned to show at about 6pm the sky was a bit clear with grey colour. i texted my friend asking him when we would start the first ramadhan? still, at about 7.30pm he has no answered. it was a bit funny, i asked around when the 1st ramadhan would be? either wednesday or thursday?

at about 10pm then i got a message from a friend. he told me that the 1st ramadhan would be started on the wednesday! i was so excited. i have no idea why. but i was so happy. i prepared myself for the isyak prayers, with baju melayu and as well as sarong. i never like to wear sarong at all!

alhamdulillah my 1st night ramadhan went well. i got a chance to pray with abang zahar and kak kin. since i have forgotten the selawat between the terawikh prayers, then i ignored it. after the terawikh prayers we decided to eat early. but it was too early! 11pm. we were pretty sure the kids would be hungry at noon. therefore abang zahar suggested that we should eat a bit later. he came with an idea, ''why don't we watch any movie first before we have our sahur?''.

all of us went to the living room and we watched the A-Team. my eyes couldn't bear anymore. i believed not more than 10minuted the movie started i already slept! in the middle of the movie, i awoke. then i realized that i was still wearing the sarong and baju melayu. i asked for a permission to leave the living room. abang zahar asked me where was i going to? in my mind i have no idea except to change my sarong. i need to change i answered half awoke.

i didn't straight went to changed, but i went to the bed. that was the last thing i remembered before Song came to the room and called me for sahur. it was nice to have time eating together with a family.

now although i am half awake, but it is a nice experience on my 1st day of ramadhan.

marhaban ramadhan

marhaban ya ramdhan! welcome ramadhan. insya allah tomorrow will be the first day of ramadhan (in the UK i hope). in malaysia, family and friends wishing everybody a happy ramadhan. as the previous years, insya allah ramadhan will be celebrated with joy and thankful to the almighty. i believe that everybody is waiting this holy month, where the almighty offers forgiveness and answer all the prayers.

due to the last year i will be in the UK, i am looking forward this ramadhan. i don't have any special plan, however i do hope that i could recite as many as the holy al-quran, do lots of prayers and share with Bristolian kids.

and last but not least, a bit release when i have a chance to submit my thesis draft a day before ramadhan. alhamdulillah. one more hurdle need to overcome. somewhen in september insya allah. then it is done!

reminder to myself, to take this opportunity of ramadhan to do the best. perhaps i have no chance to meet this holy month in the future.

untuk anak2 saudara perempuan yang disayangi

acu melihat gambar keluarga yang acu bawa 3 tahun lepas. ada ija, nana, een, olin,faiza dan atirah. 3 tahun berlalu amat cepat. acu tengok gambar2 mereka sekarang. ija dah 24, nana 22, een dan olin (17), faiza (18) dan atirah 14. wahhh.. terasa acu makin tua!acu tersenyum. melihat anak2 buah membesar. kalau dulu boleh didukung kini tidak lagi. kalau dulu bolehlah marah2, lepas tu diorang ni menangis. tapi sekarang? pendekatan perlu lebih diplomasi. anak2 zaman millenium. harap2 warisan akhlak tetap tersemat. biarpun arus modenisasi, akar kena kukuh dan kuat. biar jadi perempuan melayu yang intelek, cantik, berbudi dan beragama.

bila diingatkan anak2 buah acu ni dah besar, kadang2 buat acu semakin risau. kalau mereka dulu kecil, bolehlah acu atau keluarga 'protect' mereka. tapi sekarang mereka dah besar. ada orang kata, dah besar senang nak jaga. tapi tidak bagi acu, lagi risau. dunia hari ini tidak menjanjikan kita boleh peroleh keamanan di mana-mana.

anak2 buah yang dah besar dan cantik ni mesti lah ada yang nak kenal2 kan? (eleh kalau masa comot2 berhingus..hurmmmm.....). tapi tulah, orang kata rambut sama hitam, tapi hati lain2. kalau ada alat boleh x-ray hati baguslah. ini tidak. jadi kena berhati2. kawan biar seribu. tak salah kalau nak berkawan, tapi kena tau batasan. sebab tu kita ada pegangan. sebab agama itu sendiri menggariskan sampai mana sempadan yang kita boleh pergi.

mungkin acu dibesarkan dalam arus konvensional. semasa dulu, kalaulah kakak2 acu ke luar ke pekan, pasti diteman oleh abah atau abang. jarang ada lelaki berani mendekati kakak2 acu. abah dan abang2 sangat2 protective. mungkin ada orang melabelkan mereka ini 'over protective'. tapi acu rasa cara begitu lebih selamat. kita akan cuba lindungi sedaya upaya orang yang kita sayangkan?

tiba-tiba acu teringat lagu beyonce, single ladies. rasanya elok acu tujukan lagu ini pada anak2 buah acu. ini sebahagian lirik daripada lagu itu.

Cuz if you liked it then you should have put a ring on it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it
Don’t be mad once you see that he want it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it

kepada anak2 buah yang disayangi....tengok, beyonce tu pun cakap, dalam hubungan ini kalau nak main2..good bye darling! beyonce yang famous tu pun nak kawin (dah kawin dengan jay-z). there is a tip. generally man is a playful creature. he likes to play. but when it comes to a relationship, when he likes someone he will try his best to get the person he loves. selalunya lelaki akan bersungguh-sungguh kalau orang tu betul2 dia sayang. kalau tak..hmmm you'll become another barbie doll in his game!another beautiful toy...pastu dia boleh cakap..that was my EX... (nauzubillah minta dilindungkan)

teringat acu satu kisah yang pernah dilalui oleh acu dan kawan2. di mana? rahsia. macamni, masa tu ada seorang awek yang paling cun acu dan kawan2 kenal.(hey trust me darling, when i say she is beautiful.. i really mean it!). bukan itu saja, bijak (4.0 pointer beb), baik budi perkerti dan sangat2 beragama (muslimah abis). kira ni complete package lah!

jadi kawan2 naqib (ketua kumpulan agama) berhasrat nak me'nackle awek cun ni. tapi semua dia tak layan. akhir sekali kami dengar dia bertunang (masa tu) dengan seorang kawan kami (bukan dari geng2 surau) tapi mamat ni baiklah. semua terkejut! rupa2nya dia akan terima sesiapa sahaja yang berani jumpa dengan parents dia. perrghhhh..melepas semua orang (termasuk acu).

so the moral of the story. it worth to be a bit expensive. you have to value yourself. the price is not about how much the dowry (huhuhu :(( ). tapi lebih kepada harga diri, akhlak dan sifat terpuji.cantik tu subjektif. tapi, walau bagaimana cantikpun tanpa akhlak yang baik, buruknya tetap terselah. apa2pun acu doakan semoga allah anugerahkan orang yang baik2 sebagai peneman hidup anak2 buah acu nanti. amin

money expendicture in malaysia, scares me!

it is raining outside. i have no mood to continue my work. reading and reediting make me tired. however this work needs to be done as soon as possible. these two days i am so excited viewing website about houses in malaysia. there are few locations that attract me. bangi, bukit mahkota, nilai impian and as well as semenyih. when i check the price, it is extremely expensive! some of the houses reach half a million ringgit malaysia.



pheww.. i wipe the sweat at my forehead. as a bachelor when i return home there are many things need to be taken care of. well i need to think about my own expenses, parents, bills, utilities, car (thinking of getting a new one) and for the future wedding as well. CRAZYYYY!! it is totally crazy! in every breath it costs money!



although that my maths is not good i think the expenses should be nearly rm4-5k as well a month. perhaps! it scares me! hurmmm therefore i perhaps neeed somebody to guide me how to be care in spending money. i am tottaly not good at budgeting. although i read some tips but still, not working for me. huhuhu



all of all, i will try to plan. the english says 'if you fail to plan you plan to fail'. indeed.

secangkir kopi itali

baru-baru ini saya berkunjung ke rumah seorang abang. lama benar saya tidak menziarahinya kerana kekangan kerja yang banyak. sesampainya saya di rumahnya, saya disambut mesra olehnya. ''wan minum kopi?'' tanyanya hormat sebaik sahaja saya melabuhkan punggung di atas sofa yang empuk. ''apa-apa saja abang'' ujar saya ringkas. segan pula menyusahkan tuan rumah. maklumlah tujuan utama sekadar menziarah. ''hah kalau begitu wan kena cuba kopi yang abang baru beli dari Itali'' ''eh, abang ke Itali? bila pula tu?'' ''minggu lepas, ada seminar di sana. kemudian rakan abang dari Itali mencadangkan abang rasa kopi yang disediakan khas di Itali. enak sungguh! hah, ini pertama kali abang ingin mencubanya'' ujarnya begitu teruja.

sambil dia memanaskan air, sempat dia bercerita.''wan, kau tahu, yang sebenarnya kopi tidak ditanam di Itali. namun begitu kopi menjadi satu nilai estetika dan gaya hidup di sana. biji2 kopi yang dipanggang di kawasan berbeza akan menghasilkan rasa dan aroma yang berbeza. kau tahu wan cappucino dan brioche diminum oleh orang2 itali di waktu pagi. manakala ''granita di caffè con panna'' diminum untuk menghilangkan dahaga terutama pada waktu tengahari yang terik.'' ''wah, menarik sungguh ya abang. kalaulah saya berpeluang lagi ke sana, insya allah saya akan mencuba kopi pula kali ini. sebab dulu saya hanya sempat menikmati coklat panasnya sahaja''

''ah, sudah siap'' ujar abang sambil menghulurkan secawan kopi kepada saya. ''kalau wan ingin sediakan kopi susu, abang dah letakkan susu dalam bekas itu'' ujarnya sambil menuding ke bekas bewarna putih di atas meja. ''terima kasih''

''alamak kelatnya!'' rengusnya. saya cuba sisipkan sedikit kopi. betullah sangat kelat. ''err, biar abang tambahkan gula pula'' bingkasnya sambil mencapai cawan di tangan saya dan segera ke dapur. ''alamak termanis pula!'' bentaknya. saya hanya tersenyum melihat gelagatnya. dia masih tidak berpuas hati, lalu menambah sedikit air panas. dengan berhati-hati disudukan sedikit air kopi. tergambar di wajahnya harapan agar kali ini kopinya sempurna. ''ahhhh...tawar pula!'' ujarnya geram.

''wan, tunggu sekejap lah ya, abang panaskan sekali lagi air. aishhh kenapa sukar betul nak menyediakan kopi yang lazat ni? mentang2lah kopi baru dari itali!''. saya hanya tersenyum. kelakar melihat abang itu. macam-macam.

tiba-tiba abang itu ketawa sendirian. saya menjadi pelik. apa yang sangat melucukan itu? ''kenapa bang? tiba2 sahaja abang ketawa ni. pasal kopi tak jadi kah?'' ''ye, pasal kopi ni lah..susah betul ya nak sediakan kopi yang lazat. tiba2 teringat pula kopi ni macam juga kehidupan dan hubungan sesama manusia'' ujarnya. masih ada sisa-sisa ketawa yang kedengaran. saya menjadi keliru. ''kenapa ya abang? saya kurang faham.''

''oh, macam ni wan. dalam kehidupan, apabila kita bertemu dengan sesuatu atau seseorang yang baru, kita akan mencuba pelbagai kaedah untuk membuatkan kombinasi (hubungan) itu menjadi sempurna. macam abang sediakan kopi tadi. 1 sudu kopi, 2 sudu gula.sebagai alternatif kita boleh tambahkan susu. tapi kadang2 segala usaha kita itu sia-sia. macam abang sediakan kopi tadi. tawarlah, manislah, kelatlah. namun begitu kita akan terus berusaha untuk mencapai satu hubungan ideal yang kita telah set kan dalam minda. namun begitu kadang2 apa yang kita usahakan, hasilnya tidak sama seperti yang kita impikan. jadi kini kita ada dua pilihan. sama ada terus berusaha dengan membuat pelbagai pengubahsuaian, atau kita bermula daripada mula (seperti abang sediakan semula kopi). atau sebagai jalan mudah, kita tinggalkan sahaja dengan satu alasan, kopi ini memang tidak sedap!''

''hahahahaha'' kami sama2 ketawa. ''saya mungkin memilih option yang paling mudah tu'' ujar saya berseloroh. ''abangpun! hahahaha''balasnya sambil ketawa. ''jadi apa kata kalau kita batalkan aja niat untuk minum kopi. apa kata kita minum jus apple saja?'' ujarnya sambil menghulurkan air kotak berperisa apple. kami sama2 tersenyum.